I’m going backwards
Posted by madamlight on May 11, 2009
It has been a long time since I posted here. The year has been harder then I could have imagined with death at every corner. Traveling for a child and activities galore, have demolished most of my routines. I try to keep motivated and workout when I can, but ……….
I watch The Biggest Loser and now 2 times they have shown the contestants running. The first time they ran a 1/2 marathon and the 2nd time they ran a marathon. You would think this would serve as motivation, but it is the opposite for me.
When I do the math, especially for Tara on The Biggest Loser this time, I calculate her maintaining an average speed of 5+ mph in both runs. I feel like such a failure. I have been running/walking/jogging for so much longer then her and I can not maintain that speed.
I’m watching my weight increase, my energy decrease and my anxiety take over again. I need to do something. I need to fix myself some way that doesn’t involve cookies.
I need the trainer and I can’t afford the trainer.
